1 00:00:01,000 --> 00:00:03,000 ORIGINAL NETFLIX SERIES 2 00:00:04,752 --> 00:00:09,752 Sub By ToBeDupBeDo 3 00:00:32,032 --> 00:00:33,032 I got it. 4 00:00:33,659 --> 00:00:34,659 Open it! 5 00:00:35,577 --> 00:00:37,409 Mr. This Dudley main key, so this key 6 00:00:37,496 --> 00:00:40,259 can open the door of the house anywhere. 7 00:00:40,332 --> 00:00:41,948 What do you think is there? 8 00:00:42,042 --> 00:00:45,417 What if it was a cotton candy machine? 9 00:00:45,420 --> 00:00:46,661 That would be something. 10 00:00:46,755 --> 00:00:47,791 Or a pony? 11 00:00:47,881 --> 00:00:49,042 Not a pony. 12 00:00:55,013 --> 00:00:56,129 This isn't working. 13 00:00:56,265 --> 00:00:59,333 Could be a pony. Something moving. 14 00:00:59,643 --> 00:01:01,730 I saw a shadow under the door. 15 00:01:04,982 --> 00:01:05,982 Hello? 16 00:01:07,109 --> 00:01:09,676 If there had been a pony there, it would have died. 17 00:01:18,287 --> 00:01:19,903 Where's the damn key? 18 00:01:19,997 --> 00:01:22,354 - Don't say that word. - You said that. 19 00:01:29,339 --> 00:01:31,371 I also want to see what's there. 20 00:01:35,387 --> 00:01:37,504 Dad, we need more keys! 21 00:01:37,681 --> 00:01:39,422 This is an emergency! 22 00:01:45,397 --> 00:01:46,683 You're not funny, Luke. 23 00:03:00,097 --> 00:03:01,097 I'm at home. 24 00:03:06,728 --> 00:03:10,688 I was home, I think, and stopped with wonder thinking about it. 25 00:03:11,692 --> 00:03:12,728 I'm at home. 26 00:03:13,694 --> 00:03:14,694 I'm at home. 27 00:03:18,907 --> 00:03:20,114 - Hey. - Hey. 28 00:03:21,034 --> 00:03:22,034 How was that? 29 00:03:22,119 --> 00:03:24,281 That was good. Kelly says hello. 30 00:03:24,371 --> 00:03:25,782 His son is all grown up. 31 00:03:26,248 --> 00:03:27,455 You are missed. 32 00:03:27,582 --> 00:03:28,582 I'll cook. 33 00:03:28,667 --> 00:03:31,330 I know, but he wants fries. 34 00:03:31,461 --> 00:03:34,044 All fries. Just fries. 35 00:03:36,299 --> 00:03:37,299 How is it written? 36 00:03:38,093 --> 00:03:40,426 Slow. This... So slow. 37 00:03:40,929 --> 00:03:44,093 - How many since I left? - Two... 38 00:03:44,266 --> 00:03:45,266 Page. 39 00:03:45,392 --> 00:03:46,392 Ouch. 40 00:03:46,476 --> 00:03:49,560 I always say, I won't follow up to Hill House, 41 00:03:49,646 --> 00:03:51,888 and I think this is why. I... It's just... 42 00:03:51,982 --> 00:03:52,982 Eat. 43 00:03:53,191 --> 00:03:54,669 This is the best cure for writer's block. 44 00:03:54,693 --> 00:03:56,935 Don't use those words. 45 00:03:57,028 --> 00:03:58,769 French fries, just French fries. 46 00:04:00,741 --> 00:04:01,857 Read something to me. 47 00:04:09,458 --> 00:04:12,701 "Sure, there's a place attached to himself 48 00:04:12,794 --> 00:04:15,912 "an atmosphere of purity and goodness. 49 00:04:17,174 --> 00:04:19,962 “That could also be said several houses 50 00:04:20,051 --> 00:04:21,258 "born bad." 51 00:04:22,387 --> 00:04:23,387 "Born evil"? 52 00:04:23,472 --> 00:04:24,713 Too much? 53 00:04:24,848 --> 00:04:26,840 Hmmm. Depends. Where are you? 54 00:04:28,977 --> 00:04:31,811 Me and dad just now got home, and, um, 55 00:04:32,022 --> 00:04:34,639 we know Luke buy petrol, and... 56 00:04:34,775 --> 00:04:35,775 Oh darling... 57 00:04:35,859 --> 00:04:37,316 We went inside. 58 00:04:38,487 --> 00:04:41,446 You don't need to do this, right? You said it yourself, 59 00:04:41,531 --> 00:04:44,774 - You'll never publish it. - I know. 60 00:04:44,868 --> 00:04:47,901 To... Look, to really see it. 61 00:04:48,830 --> 00:04:50,241 Here. 62 00:04:53,835 --> 00:04:55,918 Do you feel it? 63 00:04:57,380 --> 00:04:59,246 - Mmm-hmm. - Little girl over there, 64 00:05:00,050 --> 00:05:02,333 who is ready to join this family, 65 00:05:02,385 --> 00:05:04,877 One day, he will asked about his grandfather 66 00:05:04,971 --> 00:05:06,382 and about Uncle Luke, 67 00:05:07,349 --> 00:05:09,011 and what happened in the house. 68 00:05:10,060 --> 00:05:13,019 He will hear everything various stories and speculations, 69 00:05:13,104 --> 00:05:15,687 like you do when you were little, but... 70 00:05:16,149 --> 00:05:17,515 Whose voice do you need? 71 00:05:19,236 --> 00:05:22,229 Whose story is the most do you need to hear? 72 00:05:23,532 --> 00:05:25,444 He needs to hear this from you. 73 00:05:27,911 --> 00:05:29,618 This is for little Eleanor. 74 00:05:43,677 --> 00:05:47,091 This house, which looks like it has formed itself, 75 00:05:47,347 --> 00:05:49,760 fly together in the strength of one's own pattern 76 00:05:49,850 --> 00:05:51,591 under the hands of its developers... 77 00:05:53,478 --> 00:05:58,394 Grows his big head back to the sky without human help. 78 00:05:59,943 --> 00:06:02,026 That is a house without goodness, 79 00:06:03,363 --> 00:06:05,299 never meant to be lived in, 80 00:06:06,366 --> 00:06:09,279 not a place fit for people, or for love, 81 00:06:09,619 --> 00:06:10,619 or for hope. 82 00:06:28,805 --> 00:06:30,467 - You kissed him? - Yes. 83 00:06:31,349 --> 00:06:32,349 Gasoline. 84 00:06:34,978 --> 00:06:35,978 All right. 85 00:06:36,563 --> 00:06:37,563 If he was here, 86 00:06:38,565 --> 00:06:40,227 I think I know where to find it. 87 00:06:42,569 --> 00:06:43,569 Dad... 88 00:06:44,571 --> 00:06:47,109 It's okay. Come on. 89 00:07:00,378 --> 00:07:03,746 Uh... 90 00:07:22,776 --> 00:07:23,776 Look at me. 91 00:07:32,202 --> 00:07:33,202 Afraid. 92 00:07:35,288 --> 00:07:36,288 Look at me. 93 00:07:37,791 --> 00:07:39,703 Fear is logic release 94 00:07:40,835 --> 00:07:43,794 willingness to let go pattern that makes sense 95 00:07:45,048 --> 00:07:47,210 We either give up or fight it. 96 00:07:48,301 --> 00:07:50,663 But we can't face it halfway. 97 00:08:08,905 --> 00:08:09,941 OK. 98 00:08:12,409 --> 00:08:13,525 I'm at home. 99 00:08:15,078 --> 00:08:16,660 "I'm home," I thought, 100 00:08:17,414 --> 00:08:19,371 and stop wondering about it. 101 00:08:20,375 --> 00:08:21,375 I'm at home. 102 00:08:22,419 --> 00:08:23,419 I'm at home. 103 00:08:24,879 --> 00:08:25,915 Now, to climb. 104 00:08:26,506 --> 00:08:28,498 Luke! Luke! 105 00:08:28,883 --> 00:08:29,883 Father. 106 00:08:30,093 --> 00:08:31,487 That... That door always locked. 107 00:08:31,511 --> 00:08:32,511 Yes. 108 00:08:32,595 --> 00:08:33,927 Only if he wants it. 109 00:08:34,055 --> 00:08:36,092 Remove the hinges. How hard is it? 110 00:08:36,182 --> 00:08:37,889 But I've tried everything. 111 00:08:39,936 --> 00:08:41,427 Maybe with the two of us... 112 00:08:42,355 --> 00:08:43,355 Dad! 113 00:08:44,065 --> 00:08:45,351 Oh, Steve, wait! 114 00:08:50,488 --> 00:08:51,488 You are okay? 115 00:08:51,990 --> 00:08:53,697 Yes, I just need to rest. 116 00:08:54,743 --> 00:08:56,154 Why aren't you sleeping? 117 00:08:56,578 --> 00:08:59,286 Get some sleep. Tomorrow morning Hill House will be there. 118 00:09:00,957 --> 00:09:03,370 I know it's... It's hard. Now it's too much. 119 00:09:03,460 --> 00:09:05,668 Why don't you put this down, 120 00:09:06,087 --> 00:09:09,046 came to bed, and leave the ghost where it is? 121 00:09:09,132 --> 00:09:11,465 That's... That's not the problem. 122 00:09:14,345 --> 00:09:15,461 Where are you now? 123 00:09:16,973 --> 00:09:19,511 Well, we... We went home. 124 00:09:21,269 --> 00:09:22,931 Then we went to the Red Room. 125 00:09:24,314 --> 00:09:25,314 And then... 126 00:09:25,482 --> 00:09:27,724 The door opened and I... looked at Luke, then... 127 00:09:27,901 --> 00:09:28,901 Luke died. 128 00:09:33,448 --> 00:09:34,529 No. 129 00:09:34,657 --> 00:09:36,740 He... He lives on the floor. 130 00:09:36,910 --> 00:09:39,152 And... And then, the door closed, 131 00:09:39,662 --> 00:09:40,778 and... 132 00:09:43,458 --> 00:09:44,994 And then, he died. 133 00:09:47,087 --> 00:09:48,294 You have to say it. 134 00:09:48,880 --> 00:09:50,917 You've got to finally say it, Steve. 135 00:09:51,132 --> 00:09:53,374 - That's the problem. - I know. 136 00:09:53,468 --> 00:09:55,960 The door closed, then I... 137 00:09:57,263 --> 00:09:59,801 I... I, uh... I don't can say what happened. 138 00:10:00,642 --> 00:10:02,929 It's still too early. Why aren't you sleeping? 139 00:10:03,019 --> 00:10:05,477 - Go to sleep... - No, Leigh... Leigh, I mean, I... I... 140 00:10:05,563 --> 00:10:09,227 I can't say what what happens after the door is closed. 141 00:10:12,278 --> 00:10:13,985 I... I don't remember. 142 00:10:16,157 --> 00:10:18,114 I mean, how do I get out of the house. 143 00:10:21,162 --> 00:10:23,825 I... I... I don't remember back to California. 144 00:10:25,125 --> 00:10:26,491 I... I don't remember us... 145 00:10:28,294 --> 00:10:29,375 reconcile. 146 00:10:31,548 --> 00:10:33,710 Or finding out you're pregnant. 147 00:10:37,804 --> 00:10:40,137 Of course not. 148 00:10:40,890 --> 00:10:42,631 Because you haven't written it yet. 149 00:10:44,561 --> 00:10:47,224 I mean, is there something that real before you write it, Steve? 150 00:10:47,689 --> 00:10:50,009 The things you write it's real. Those people are real, 151 00:10:50,066 --> 00:10:52,103 their feelings real, their pain is real, 152 00:10:52,193 --> 00:10:54,025 but... Not for you, right? 153 00:10:54,779 --> 00:10:57,362 Not until you swallow it and digest it 154 00:10:57,448 --> 00:10:59,690 and you throw it away on a piece of paper. 155 00:10:59,784 --> 00:11:02,902 And even then, that is is the most faded imitation. 156 00:11:03,037 --> 00:11:07,031 You took someone else's life and love and loss and pain, 157 00:11:07,542 --> 00:11:08,908 and you eat it, Steve. 158 00:11:09,878 --> 00:11:11,244 You're an eater. 159 00:11:11,880 --> 00:11:13,712 You eat it and... throw it away, 160 00:11:13,882 --> 00:11:16,924 and then, and only after that, is it real to you. 161 00:11:17,218 --> 00:11:20,507 Normal people's lives are flesh and blood and muscle and bone 162 00:11:20,597 --> 00:11:22,680 but it's not yours, darling. Oh no. 163 00:11:22,765 --> 00:11:24,677 Your life is just plastic. 164 00:11:24,767 --> 00:11:27,601 You're a plastic parasite. 165 00:11:27,854 --> 00:11:30,437 Plastic hacker, aren't you, darling? 166 00:11:30,857 --> 00:11:33,440 So, of course you don't remember how you healed our marriage 167 00:11:33,526 --> 00:11:36,360 or make our babies, because you haven't really seen it, 168 00:11:36,446 --> 00:11:39,405 have you? You haven't break it down in prose. 169 00:11:40,450 --> 00:11:43,693 I... I'm always playing a role support in your story, if we are sincere. 170 00:11:43,786 --> 00:11:46,199 I feed you and fuck you with you and pay your bills 171 00:11:46,289 --> 00:11:50,033 glanced at some of the novels no one will read or publish it, 172 00:11:50,126 --> 00:11:53,134 but I paid you to write it, didn't I? 173 00:11:53,254 --> 00:11:55,166 I've taken the check for your dreams, 174 00:11:55,256 --> 00:11:57,964 and I say goodbye to you, and even that is not enough. 175 00:11:58,051 --> 00:12:00,134 Don't lie to me, darling. I'm not real. 176 00:12:00,637 --> 00:12:03,880 If I'm real, I'm not will ever walk out that door, 177 00:12:03,973 --> 00:12:07,216 but I don't, and you did it, and now this one... 178 00:12:08,937 --> 00:12:09,937 This... 179 00:12:10,813 --> 00:12:11,974 The small one... 180 00:12:14,150 --> 00:12:15,812 He's not real either. 181 00:12:16,653 --> 00:12:18,315 Oh. 182 00:12:18,655 --> 00:12:19,691 He kicked. 183 00:12:19,781 --> 00:12:21,113 Oh, he's hungry. 184 00:12:21,783 --> 00:12:23,649 He must be an eater like his father. 185 00:12:25,411 --> 00:12:27,494 If yes, my darling, 186 00:12:27,580 --> 00:12:30,197 If he eats me from the inside, 187 00:12:30,583 --> 00:12:32,745 and I burst like a blister, 188 00:12:34,003 --> 00:12:35,835 will you lose your mind... 189 00:12:38,466 --> 00:12:40,082 Like your mother? 190 00:12:40,969 --> 00:12:41,969 Steve. 191 00:12:54,857 --> 00:12:55,857 Luke. 192 00:12:57,026 --> 00:12:58,938 Luke. Oh Lord. 193 00:12:59,028 --> 00:13:00,028 Oh Lord. 194 00:13:00,571 --> 00:13:02,233 No, no, no. 195 00:13:02,907 --> 00:13:03,907 Luke. 196 00:13:11,165 --> 00:13:12,165 Come on. 197 00:13:46,242 --> 00:13:47,242 Mom. 198 00:14:14,479 --> 00:14:16,812 I... I can't help him. 199 00:14:18,232 --> 00:14:21,566 Listen, listen, I know I messed up, okay? 200 00:14:21,652 --> 00:14:24,190 But I... I don't... I don't use, 201 00:14:24,280 --> 00:14:26,363 no, and... And I'm so cold, 202 00:14:26,449 --> 00:14:30,238 and... my hands and feet so stiff, I just... I... 203 00:14:32,038 --> 00:14:33,529 I... I need... I need a bed. 204 00:14:33,623 --> 00:14:36,056 Like a sofa. I'll sleep on the damn floor. 205 00:14:36,084 --> 00:14:37,950 Just... Please. 206 00:14:39,504 --> 00:14:42,713 Please, please, let me go back, please. 207 00:14:53,101 --> 00:14:54,101 Hey. 208 00:15:00,149 --> 00:15:01,185 What do you think? 209 00:15:02,485 --> 00:15:05,577 This is the right place for cleanse yourself for a few days. 210 00:15:06,322 --> 00:15:09,565 We've been paid, and they are it even has room service, Luke. 211 00:15:13,162 --> 00:15:16,075 You know, everyone always give up on me for life. 212 00:15:16,958 --> 00:15:19,041 But not you, Luke. Not you. 213 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:20,955 You saved me. 214 00:15:21,379 --> 00:15:23,291 But I, um, don't. 215 00:15:25,675 --> 00:15:26,791 You mean... 216 00:15:28,177 --> 00:15:30,510 You, uh... You took the money and ran away. 217 00:15:30,805 --> 00:15:33,047 - I never found you. - No. 218 00:15:33,766 --> 00:15:34,882 No, I came here. 219 00:15:35,685 --> 00:15:37,017 I gave us this hotel room. 220 00:15:37,353 --> 00:15:39,515 And I found you at a pay phone, remember? 221 00:15:41,190 --> 00:15:42,190 Correct. 222 00:15:49,615 --> 00:15:52,198 Why are you following me? 223 00:15:52,326 --> 00:15:54,913 You never tell the truth the truth to me. 224 00:15:57,874 --> 00:15:59,911 I think it's because you are kind to me. 225 00:16:00,001 --> 00:16:01,001 A little. 226 00:16:03,796 --> 00:16:05,128 I have something for us. 227 00:16:11,762 --> 00:16:14,470 Last time, so that we are clean before recovering. 228 00:16:14,557 --> 00:16:16,844 No, um, I'm 90 days clean. 229 00:16:16,934 --> 00:16:18,300 Ninety-two, actually. 230 00:16:18,394 --> 00:16:19,851 Yes, but it's not clean. 231 00:16:22,231 --> 00:16:24,644 you get the 12 steps and collect your chips, 232 00:16:24,734 --> 00:16:27,477 but you're never clean, never really clean, 233 00:16:27,904 --> 00:16:30,521 because one day the needle will return to your arms. 234 00:16:31,157 --> 00:16:32,898 You have an appointment with that needle. 235 00:16:33,618 --> 00:16:34,654 You're the one waiting. 236 00:16:35,995 --> 00:16:37,987 No, that's... No, that's not true. 237 00:16:38,080 --> 00:16:39,537 I know what you're thinking. 238 00:16:40,458 --> 00:16:43,041 You think this is what I do it with your money. 239 00:16:44,086 --> 00:16:46,227 I mean, Steve's money. Let's be real. 240 00:16:46,297 --> 00:16:49,506 You think, I am put it on my arm 241 00:16:49,592 --> 00:16:50,924 and maybe I die there. 242 00:16:52,094 --> 00:16:53,881 In vomit and urine. 243 00:16:54,430 --> 00:16:57,969 And that alley rat now chew me up. 244 00:16:58,601 --> 00:17:00,012 His little yellow teeth... 245 00:17:01,312 --> 00:17:02,894 Hollowing out jelly... 246 00:17:05,024 --> 00:17:06,890 From my beautiful eyes, right? 247 00:17:10,738 --> 00:17:11,774 God, that's good. 248 00:17:16,160 --> 00:17:17,367 Come with me, Luke. 249 00:17:19,121 --> 00:17:20,121 No. 250 00:17:23,209 --> 00:17:24,290 No, it won't. 251 00:17:25,419 --> 00:17:27,035 Honey, you've done it. 252 00:17:36,472 --> 00:17:37,633 Oh, Gordon's right. 253 00:17:41,060 --> 00:17:43,268 If you look at the wallpaper long enough, 254 00:17:44,438 --> 00:17:45,974 You can see the little girl. 255 00:17:47,900 --> 00:17:51,644 That's a little girl with egg eyes. 256 00:17:58,244 --> 00:18:01,703 Luke! Luke! 257 00:18:03,833 --> 00:18:05,620 But I've tried everything... 258 00:18:06,544 --> 00:18:08,661 - Maybe with the two of us... - Dad! 259 00:18:10,673 --> 00:18:12,193 Oh, Steve, wait! 260 00:18:38,659 --> 00:18:39,659 Luke. 261 00:18:42,997 --> 00:18:43,997 Father? 262 00:18:49,253 --> 00:18:50,253 Up here! 263 00:18:55,176 --> 00:18:56,176 Father! 264 00:18:56,385 --> 00:18:57,592 Up here! Fast! 265 00:19:00,931 --> 00:19:01,967 Father! 266 00:19:17,531 --> 00:19:18,531 Father. 267 00:19:19,116 --> 00:19:20,152 Father! 268 00:19:20,910 --> 00:19:22,742 Oh Lord. Shirley! 269 00:19:36,842 --> 00:19:38,208 This is for you. 270 00:19:42,598 --> 00:19:43,805 I didn't order that. 271 00:19:49,230 --> 00:19:50,391 Oh, um... 272 00:19:53,109 --> 00:19:55,146 Say thank you to him, but I... I... 273 00:20:00,408 --> 00:20:01,819 You want me to pour it? 274 00:20:03,744 --> 00:20:04,744 Like this, 275 00:20:04,829 --> 00:20:08,664 what's the strangest thing? do you have discounts on the menu? 276 00:20:08,749 --> 00:20:11,261 Like, things don't never ordered by anyone. 277 00:20:36,944 --> 00:20:40,733 So I minded my business alone there, and, uh, suddenly... 278 00:20:40,823 --> 00:20:42,735 I have to pay you for the drinks. 279 00:20:43,492 --> 00:20:45,449 So you sent me a plate of, uh... 280 00:20:45,536 --> 00:20:48,370 Boneless Caribbean wings. 281 00:20:48,456 --> 00:20:51,949 Serves me well because it doesn't can see the ring from 10 yards away. 282 00:20:52,585 --> 00:20:53,871 No way 10 yards. 283 00:20:54,879 --> 00:20:56,211 Excuse me. 284 00:20:56,297 --> 00:20:58,337 You're the first person that I saw at this convention 285 00:20:58,382 --> 00:21:01,216 which it seems like they are too not shopping for a casket. 286 00:21:01,302 --> 00:21:04,136 Yes, these things do created Adam's Family 287 00:21:04,221 --> 00:21:07,805 I never thought about it, but you send someone a drink... 288 00:21:07,892 --> 00:21:10,509 - Without their permission. - And it's socially acceptable. 289 00:21:10,603 --> 00:21:13,603 - But you sent someone appetizers... - Without their permission. 290 00:21:13,606 --> 00:21:16,098 And yes, it's very strange. 291 00:21:16,233 --> 00:21:17,233 I guess like a jerk. 292 00:21:17,610 --> 00:21:18,976 Boneless bastard. 293 00:21:20,738 --> 00:21:23,025 Sorry, I was just trying to be funny. 294 00:21:23,449 --> 00:21:25,156 It's been a minute, I think. 295 00:21:25,367 --> 00:21:27,700 Can I sit here and eat? 296 00:21:28,454 --> 00:21:30,390 - You don't have to eat it. - Oh, of course. 297 00:21:30,414 --> 00:21:32,531 I will remain professional. Leave it to God. 298 00:21:32,625 --> 00:21:35,083 We can chat, um, embalming techniques. 299 00:21:35,336 --> 00:21:37,202 That's the point of all this, right? 300 00:21:37,296 --> 00:21:38,707 Nothing funny. 301 00:21:39,548 --> 00:21:40,868 Just embalming. 302 00:21:43,677 --> 00:21:44,884 Okay. 303 00:21:44,970 --> 00:21:48,759 The maid actually said it wasn't that bad. 304 00:21:49,642 --> 00:21:50,758 His words. 305 00:21:59,777 --> 00:22:01,797 I guess it's a matter of getting started your own house, 306 00:22:01,821 --> 00:22:03,357 they never told you. 307 00:22:03,447 --> 00:22:06,690 Not like buying home, not even a little bit. 308 00:22:06,784 --> 00:22:09,242 I haven't slept for... Two years. 309 00:22:09,328 --> 00:22:10,944 Mine is also used. 310 00:22:11,872 --> 00:22:13,033 Are you serious? 311 00:22:13,123 --> 00:22:15,115 I didn't hear the last order. 312 00:22:15,209 --> 00:22:16,495 Oh, me neither. 313 00:22:18,879 --> 00:22:19,879 Well, I guess that's it. 314 00:22:21,382 --> 00:22:22,839 You are true to your words. 315 00:22:23,467 --> 00:22:24,548 I always do 316 00:22:24,969 --> 00:22:27,052 Very well behaved. 317 00:22:27,137 --> 00:22:29,049 I rarely do. 318 00:22:29,139 --> 00:22:31,927 - Um, on that note... - Oh, no. 319 00:22:32,017 --> 00:22:34,225 - Do not do it. - I don't. I just said, 320 00:22:34,311 --> 00:22:36,061 - because we missed the last order... - You will. 321 00:22:36,063 --> 00:22:38,313 I have all the tools to make martinis in my room 322 00:22:38,315 --> 00:22:40,477 if you want to have a drink. 323 00:22:48,742 --> 00:22:51,075 I did it with very good until the end there. 324 00:22:51,161 --> 00:22:53,278 You did it. One yard line. 325 00:22:54,206 --> 00:22:55,968 - Men like that. - I can't help it. 326 00:22:56,000 --> 00:22:57,411 It takes 60 million years 327 00:22:57,501 --> 00:23:00,593 to develop the two-legged carnivores I saw in front of you. 328 00:23:03,716 --> 00:23:04,716 Anyway, Thank you. 329 00:23:04,842 --> 00:23:08,006 Nice to meet with you, and I enjoyed the chat 330 00:23:08,095 --> 00:23:09,586 but I'll say good night. 331 00:23:34,330 --> 00:23:35,866 But that's not what you said. 332 00:23:37,041 --> 00:23:38,452 You see my ring, 333 00:23:38,542 --> 00:23:40,829 and then I said things about two-legged carnivores, 334 00:23:40,920 --> 00:23:41,920 and you said... 335 00:23:43,756 --> 00:23:45,918 "Let's look at the types what kind of martini is made." 336 00:23:47,259 --> 00:23:50,343 We're out of the bar, across the lobby, to the elevator, 337 00:23:50,429 --> 00:23:52,295 and you get it martinis, right? 338 00:23:53,557 --> 00:23:56,015 How old was Jayden at that time? Six? 339 00:23:57,311 --> 00:23:58,472 And Allie... 340 00:23:58,562 --> 00:24:01,020 Two. 341 00:24:02,107 --> 00:24:04,107 Must have been dealing with diapers and bills for years, 342 00:24:04,151 --> 00:24:06,768 and you just bought a business, and that's a minus 343 00:24:07,237 --> 00:24:08,273 and live like that... 344 00:24:08,364 --> 00:24:10,401 - Noisy. - Hungry too. 345 00:24:10,783 --> 00:24:12,524 He was so hungry, he screamed. 346 00:24:13,243 --> 00:24:15,576 The bill is screaming and the children screamed 347 00:24:15,704 --> 00:24:19,038 and your husband only ...Out of focus, right? 348 00:24:20,250 --> 00:24:24,210 And you're so far from home for the first time in a long time. 349 00:24:24,296 --> 00:24:25,412 Stop it. 350 00:24:25,798 --> 00:24:29,587 How long has it been since are you being a little reckless? 351 00:24:31,387 --> 00:24:33,887 You saw my wedding ring right before you answer. 352 00:24:34,473 --> 00:24:37,181 That's disgusting. You have married and you force... 353 00:24:37,267 --> 00:24:38,267 Don't lie. 354 00:24:40,270 --> 00:24:41,602 The ring sealed the deal. 355 00:24:41,689 --> 00:24:43,555 You go upstairs with me because 356 00:24:43,649 --> 00:24:45,435 the ring, because the ring means... 357 00:24:47,236 --> 00:24:49,398 You have as much to lose as I do. 358 00:24:49,488 --> 00:24:52,652 And that is calculation, Mrs. Harris. 359 00:24:54,827 --> 00:24:56,534 You don't know me. 360 00:24:56,620 --> 00:24:59,078 Well, that's the point. Just dump. 361 00:24:59,164 --> 00:25:01,426 People have it all the time, but you don't. 362 00:25:01,458 --> 00:25:04,872 I mean, everything is not you. 363 00:25:04,962 --> 00:25:08,626 But God, who could guess how good you are. 364 00:25:08,716 --> 00:25:12,426 You get dressed and you fly home, and nothing seems to happen. 365 00:25:12,511 --> 00:25:14,047 You just got away with it. 366 00:25:14,138 --> 00:25:15,424 I'm a good wife. 367 00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:18,472 I'm a... good mother. 368 00:25:19,518 --> 00:25:20,518 I'm a good person 369 00:25:21,186 --> 00:25:22,643 Well, you never do it again. 370 00:25:23,147 --> 00:25:24,513 Never. 371 00:25:25,315 --> 00:25:26,931 But you never told him, right? 372 00:25:27,860 --> 00:25:29,021 Screw you. 373 00:25:29,111 --> 00:25:31,569 And even then, knowing everything we do, 374 00:25:31,655 --> 00:25:34,318 every thing that tastes good to us do it in that hotel room, 375 00:25:34,408 --> 00:25:36,445 your anger at Theo and Kevin... 376 00:25:36,535 --> 00:25:37,571 Fuck you. 377 00:25:37,661 --> 00:25:39,823 Very fair. 378 00:25:41,999 --> 00:25:43,831 But you don't want to see it, right? 379 00:25:45,419 --> 00:25:46,705 You do this. 380 00:25:47,100 --> 00:25:50,294 You did it, and you loved it, and you decide not to look at it. 381 00:25:50,340 --> 00:25:52,172 Now, you're done. 382 00:25:54,470 --> 00:25:56,132 Shirley never wanted to see. 383 00:25:57,723 --> 00:25:59,180 But Shirley had to see. 384 00:26:11,028 --> 00:26:12,269 Is everything okay? 385 00:26:14,114 --> 00:26:16,527 I think he just a little overwhelmed. 386 00:26:18,952 --> 00:26:20,968 He knows something that most people don't. 387 00:26:22,498 --> 00:26:25,832 Once someone dies, mereka mempelajari segalanya. 388 00:26:27,127 --> 00:26:29,961 Every thing is secret. 389 00:26:32,049 --> 00:26:33,049 And when I die, 390 00:26:33,926 --> 00:26:35,838 I'll get up in that hotel room 391 00:26:35,928 --> 00:26:39,046 dan harus mengawasi setiap the things he did. 392 00:26:40,224 --> 00:26:43,968 Dan itu membuatnya sangat takut, dia berharap dia akan mati lebih dulu. 393 00:26:47,648 --> 00:26:48,684 Oh, it is okay. 394 00:26:50,234 --> 00:26:51,234 Here. 395 00:26:52,236 --> 00:26:53,236 Come with me. 396 00:26:55,322 --> 00:26:56,322 It doesn't matter. 397 00:26:57,574 --> 00:26:58,574 I'll fix it. 398 00:27:00,244 --> 00:27:02,657 I ripped out organs and his eyeballs, 399 00:27:02,746 --> 00:27:05,705 and I suck blood and feces, 400 00:27:05,791 --> 00:27:07,908 and plugged the hole so he doesn't leak. 401 00:27:08,752 --> 00:27:11,210 And tied his jaw so he couldn't scream. 402 00:27:12,214 --> 00:27:15,332 And I paint faces and his hands, and... 403 00:27:16,760 --> 00:27:19,252 nailed his eyelids on the thorns so as not to stare. 404 00:27:20,013 --> 00:27:23,677 And I hang rotten flowers and pose 405 00:27:23,767 --> 00:27:27,636 like a dreamer, and now, she was sturdy and beautiful. 406 00:27:30,524 --> 00:27:34,313 But underneath, he's scary. 407 00:27:35,070 --> 00:27:37,938 Yes, we preserve and paint it, but it's still dead. 408 00:27:38,782 --> 00:27:39,782 And rot. 409 00:27:40,075 --> 00:27:41,236 And destroyed. 410 00:27:42,953 --> 00:27:44,615 But she's beautiful. 411 00:27:46,957 --> 00:27:47,957 No? 412 00:28:15,485 --> 00:28:16,521 Shirley. 413 00:28:23,327 --> 00:28:24,363 What the hell? 414 00:28:24,953 --> 00:28:25,953 We need help. 415 00:28:26,330 --> 00:28:27,491 This isn't real. 416 00:28:27,873 --> 00:28:29,489 - This is a dream. - This is real. 417 00:28:30,751 --> 00:28:31,751 He's dying. 418 00:28:33,587 --> 00:28:34,623 Come on, Luke! 419 00:28:35,881 --> 00:28:36,881 Luke... 420 00:28:37,466 --> 00:28:38,466 Come on. 421 00:28:46,433 --> 00:28:48,425 Tell me something that only I will know. 422 00:28:48,810 --> 00:28:49,810 Luke! 423 00:28:49,978 --> 00:28:51,094 When I was little... 424 00:28:53,023 --> 00:28:54,980 When I was little, my mother hit me 425 00:28:55,067 --> 00:28:57,434 for throwing stones regarding the greenhouse roof. 426 00:28:59,863 --> 00:29:01,525 It was his only time. 427 00:29:03,075 --> 00:29:04,235 He has designed it, 428 00:29:04,284 --> 00:29:06,276 and he prepared to show it to the client, 429 00:29:06,370 --> 00:29:08,282 and because I threw stones... 430 00:29:10,791 --> 00:29:12,874 Just for once in my life, he hit me. 431 00:29:14,419 --> 00:29:15,455 Only once. 432 00:29:15,545 --> 00:29:18,003 That's all he can take, and never again. 433 00:29:20,008 --> 00:29:23,251 But an ordinary rock through some glass taught me a lot 434 00:29:23,345 --> 00:29:25,345 things about my mother. 435 00:29:26,056 --> 00:29:27,137 It taught him too. 436 00:29:28,517 --> 00:29:31,476 I thought about it for a while the old one, remembering the blow. 437 00:29:32,396 --> 00:29:35,935 But remember too happy accident... 438 00:29:39,653 --> 00:29:41,861 And after thinking about it very seriously, 439 00:29:43,407 --> 00:29:44,948 I went out and did it again. 440 00:29:55,210 --> 00:29:56,621 What's that about? 441 00:30:01,258 --> 00:30:05,218 I... Can't... Remember. 442 00:30:05,304 --> 00:30:07,170 There's a reason for this, and... 443 00:30:09,099 --> 00:30:10,099 I don't remember. 444 00:30:22,321 --> 00:30:23,528 I don't feel anything. 445 00:30:24,781 --> 00:30:27,818 - It's okay, nothing was taken. - No, I don't... 446 00:30:28,076 --> 00:30:30,033 I don't feel anything anymore. 447 00:30:31,872 --> 00:30:33,238 Because you're normal. 448 00:30:35,959 --> 00:30:37,951 Tell me something that only I know. 449 00:30:39,046 --> 00:30:40,582 You keep saying that. 450 00:30:41,131 --> 00:30:42,292 We all do. 451 00:30:43,300 --> 00:30:46,509 Tell me something that's all I know 452 00:30:46,595 --> 00:30:48,636 or what will you remember me with. 453 00:30:49,306 --> 00:30:50,306 Where Have You Been? 454 00:30:50,390 --> 00:30:53,349 Nothing is the most important thing that was once mine. 455 00:30:54,061 --> 00:30:55,142 Can you help? 456 00:30:56,021 --> 00:30:57,137 And I did. 457 00:30:58,648 --> 00:31:01,186 A girl on the wall make bricks in the corners 458 00:31:01,276 --> 00:31:02,858 so no anyone can come in. 459 00:31:04,488 --> 00:31:05,729 That's all for now. 460 00:31:06,698 --> 00:31:08,155 You'll wake up. 461 00:31:15,082 --> 00:31:16,323 What's that? 462 00:31:17,793 --> 00:31:19,034 My brother. 463 00:31:20,379 --> 00:31:21,460 What about him? 464 00:31:22,255 --> 00:31:23,496 He's in trouble. 465 00:31:25,300 --> 00:31:26,836 He'll be fine. 466 00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:30,256 Wait, uh, wait. 467 00:31:30,764 --> 00:31:32,346 - Why? - It feels wrong. 468 00:31:38,772 --> 00:31:39,979 No. 469 00:31:40,482 --> 00:31:42,599 It's just a touch outside. 470 00:31:43,318 --> 00:31:45,355 Just you and me. 471 00:31:46,321 --> 00:31:47,528 Look? 472 00:31:49,950 --> 00:31:51,066 You're normal. 473 00:31:52,577 --> 00:31:53,909 This is normal. 474 00:31:54,788 --> 00:31:56,825 I... I feel so much. 475 00:31:56,915 --> 00:31:59,407 And then I... And then I didn't feel anything. 476 00:31:59,501 --> 00:32:01,788 And then I... I don't remember. 477 00:32:04,089 --> 00:32:05,546 What did you feel before? 478 00:32:06,466 --> 00:32:07,707 I feel... 479 00:32:08,385 --> 00:32:09,385 Scared... 480 00:32:10,804 --> 00:32:11,804 And... 481 00:32:12,514 --> 00:32:13,514 And guilt. 482 00:32:15,684 --> 00:32:18,801 Fear and guilt are brothers. 483 00:32:22,482 --> 00:32:23,893 I once knew a man 484 00:32:24,317 --> 00:32:26,408 who knew the brothers well. 485 00:32:27,028 --> 00:32:29,236 They kiss the petals his eyes when he sleeps, 486 00:32:29,322 --> 00:32:32,360 and every morning, he became increasingly angry. 487 00:32:33,743 --> 00:32:36,781 So he built a wall to keep it all outside, 488 00:32:37,038 --> 00:32:38,870 but those two brothers, 489 00:32:39,499 --> 00:32:40,910 they were there with him. 490 00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:42,960 Even there. 491 00:32:46,506 --> 00:32:48,919 Fear and guilt. 492 00:32:49,551 --> 00:32:51,668 Pria bodoh itu mengira temboknya akan menghalangi mereka, 493 00:32:51,761 --> 00:32:54,674 but there is only enough room for him... 494 00:32:56,641 --> 00:32:57,641 and them. 495 00:33:01,396 --> 00:33:03,479 So he was trapped behind that wall. 496 00:33:04,524 --> 00:33:06,356 Takut dan bersalah. 497 00:33:07,194 --> 00:33:11,108 And his voice left him, and he scratches and whimpers, 498 00:33:11,656 --> 00:33:14,364 and his fingers tearing apart his own rock 499 00:33:14,451 --> 00:33:17,114 sampai goresannya terdengar seperti... 500 00:33:17,996 --> 00:33:19,453 Tikus di dinding. 501 00:33:23,001 --> 00:33:24,617 Dia merasa kecil. 502 00:33:26,630 --> 00:33:27,996 Begitu kecil. 503 00:33:30,759 --> 00:33:31,920 Tapi itu mimpinya. 504 00:33:32,886 --> 00:33:35,253 And when he woke up, he was tall. 505 00:33:37,265 --> 00:33:38,472 Very high. 506 00:33:41,144 --> 00:33:42,476 Untuk selalu. 507 00:33:46,358 --> 00:33:47,519 Wait. 508 00:33:48,902 --> 00:33:51,659 Fear and guilt were sisters, Theodora. 509 00:33:51,696 --> 00:33:53,983 Tetapi saat kau bangun, they will leave you. 510 00:33:55,033 --> 00:33:56,033 Untuk selalu. 511 00:33:58,036 --> 00:33:59,823 - Wait. - Shh. 512 00:34:00,997 --> 00:34:01,997 Nikmati saja aku. 513 00:34:03,500 --> 00:34:04,536 I love you 514 00:34:05,168 --> 00:34:06,454 This is love. 515 00:34:09,130 --> 00:34:10,130 No. 516 00:34:10,215 --> 00:34:12,172 No, no... 517 00:34:12,300 --> 00:34:13,300 No. 518 00:34:13,385 --> 00:34:14,385 Theo. 519 00:34:28,900 --> 00:34:30,357 He wasn't breathing. 520 00:34:32,904 --> 00:34:34,270 oh god 521 00:34:34,364 --> 00:34:35,524 Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop. 522 00:34:37,534 --> 00:34:38,534 Come on. 523 00:34:42,038 --> 00:34:43,324 - Go away. - Check his pulse. 524 00:34:43,415 --> 00:34:45,407 No, no. No, no, no. 525 00:34:46,251 --> 00:34:47,833 I... I can't feel it. 526 00:34:47,919 --> 00:34:49,581 Don't you dare, Luke! 527 00:34:49,671 --> 00:34:51,458 - Don't you dare! - Good. 528 00:35:43,266 --> 00:35:46,509 honey 529 00:35:48,605 --> 00:35:49,605 You're awake. 530 00:35:50,273 --> 00:35:52,731 Oh, I miss you so much. 531 00:35:55,153 --> 00:35:57,240 - This. - Mmm-hmm. 532 00:36:02,494 --> 00:36:04,201 Um, where are we? 533 00:36:04,871 --> 00:36:07,989 We're home, my darling. 534 00:36:09,084 --> 00:36:10,746 My boys. 535 00:36:11,419 --> 00:36:14,912 You know, when I... still small at your age, 536 00:36:15,674 --> 00:36:18,007 I'm driving the car with your grandmother, 537 00:36:19,177 --> 00:36:24,718 and we pass a house decorated with a forest of red roses. 538 00:36:25,558 --> 00:36:27,720 And I fell in love with that house, 539 00:36:28,395 --> 00:36:31,012 and with the house, all at once. 540 00:36:31,856 --> 00:36:33,848 I think, I can stay there forever. 541 00:36:34,275 --> 00:36:36,688 Nobody found me there. 542 00:36:37,195 --> 00:36:39,528 Behind all the roses. 543 00:36:39,614 --> 00:36:44,128 And to be sure, I... will plant oleander (Butter flower/jepun) on the road. 544 00:36:44,661 --> 00:36:46,903 I turned on fire on a cool night 545 00:36:46,996 --> 00:36:49,989 and apple toast on my fireplace. 546 00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:55,119 I will keep a cat white and sew white curtains... 547 00:36:55,213 --> 00:36:57,455 And sometimes me out the door to leave 548 00:36:57,549 --> 00:37:01,543 to the store to buy cinnamon, tea, and floss. 549 00:37:02,846 --> 00:37:05,759 People will come to me for prophecy, 550 00:37:06,391 --> 00:37:09,384 and I will make a potion love for sad girls. 551 00:37:10,437 --> 00:37:11,437 I will have... 552 00:37:12,731 --> 00:37:13,731 Robin. 553 00:37:14,899 --> 00:37:16,460 I'll have a robin. 554 00:37:17,694 --> 00:37:20,277 I almost named you Robin. 555 00:37:22,115 --> 00:37:23,697 Your father even agreed. 556 00:37:24,200 --> 00:37:25,611 Robin Crain. 557 00:37:27,829 --> 00:37:30,071 But when I see you first time... 558 00:37:31,750 --> 00:37:33,207 You are Luke. 559 00:37:33,668 --> 00:37:35,000 You just did. 560 00:37:36,671 --> 00:37:37,671 Oh. 561 00:37:38,256 --> 00:37:40,088 I almost forgot. 562 00:37:47,849 --> 00:37:49,260 Your childhood hat. 563 00:37:52,103 --> 00:37:53,139 No, I, um... 564 00:37:53,938 --> 00:37:54,938 No no. 565 00:37:55,565 --> 00:37:57,397 We will do it tea party, 566 00:37:57,484 --> 00:38:00,898 With... with a big hat and a star cup, and we... 567 00:38:01,905 --> 00:38:04,363 We're so happy you finally did here. 568 00:38:04,657 --> 00:38:05,657 Go. 569 00:38:08,036 --> 00:38:09,993 Why do you want your brother to go? 570 00:38:10,079 --> 00:38:11,445 He just arrived. 571 00:38:12,957 --> 00:38:13,957 Please, sit. 572 00:38:14,250 --> 00:38:15,250 Don't. 573 00:38:16,753 --> 00:38:18,585 Aren't you happy? see your sister? 574 00:38:20,465 --> 00:38:21,465 Am I dead? 575 00:38:24,552 --> 00:38:25,668 No. 576 00:38:26,888 --> 00:38:28,004 You're awake. 577 00:38:28,306 --> 00:38:30,013 And I'm sorry, darling. 578 00:38:30,850 --> 00:38:32,557 You had such nightmares. 579 00:38:32,977 --> 00:38:35,560 When you see your child is having nightmares, 580 00:38:35,647 --> 00:38:37,434 the feeling you get, 581 00:38:37,524 --> 00:38:39,106 you just want to take it yourself. 582 00:38:39,192 --> 00:38:44,404 Just pull it out of that eye and let him jump on you. 583 00:38:44,489 --> 00:38:47,573 Instead it jumps from their minds like a spider made of tar. 584 00:38:47,659 --> 00:38:50,072 And you will... you will accept it, 585 00:38:50,495 --> 00:38:54,660 You will open your body and... your skull and accept it all. 586 00:38:54,749 --> 00:38:59,744 Take sadness or illness and eat if you must 587 00:38:59,838 --> 00:39:01,704 if that means them won't feel it. 588 00:39:01,798 --> 00:39:05,508 You know, they say God is love. 589 00:39:06,427 --> 00:39:07,543 But for him it's impossible. 590 00:39:07,637 --> 00:39:12,598 Because whoever allow his child... his child... 591 00:39:14,060 --> 00:39:16,677 a moment of true suffering... 592 00:39:17,188 --> 00:39:19,100 No, don't know anything about love. 593 00:39:19,858 --> 00:39:22,020 God has nothing on a mother. 594 00:39:26,364 --> 00:39:29,281 I... I'm sorry, ma'am, but I... 595 00:39:29,367 --> 00:39:31,700 No, don't apologize to me. 596 00:39:32,537 --> 00:39:35,200 It's not your fault, never was. 597 00:39:35,748 --> 00:39:37,660 You are perfect. 598 00:39:37,750 --> 00:39:39,537 But I... I don't. 599 00:39:39,669 --> 00:39:41,877 - I am not. - You first. 600 00:39:42,380 --> 00:39:43,380 And you. 601 00:39:43,756 --> 00:39:44,963 This is the world, my darling. 602 00:39:45,049 --> 00:39:48,213 No and no, and you should never be fed 603 00:39:48,303 --> 00:39:49,544 like you. 604 00:39:52,765 --> 00:39:54,256 Yes, please sit down. 605 00:39:54,559 --> 00:39:55,559 Don't. 606 00:39:57,937 --> 00:40:01,647 Your sister experienced nightmare, young lady. 607 00:40:01,733 --> 00:40:03,190 Just like you. 608 00:40:03,484 --> 00:40:04,545 Don't you want him to wake up? 609 00:40:04,569 --> 00:40:05,569 Go. 610 00:40:05,737 --> 00:40:07,573 Why... Why does he keep saying that? 611 00:40:07,655 --> 00:40:09,146 Darling. Darling... 612 00:40:09,741 --> 00:40:11,903 Just... Just look at me. Look at me. 613 00:40:13,202 --> 00:40:14,363 This is a gift. 614 00:40:14,913 --> 00:40:15,949 For all of us. 615 00:40:16,539 --> 00:40:19,498 Not if I die. I... I... I don't want to die. 616 00:40:19,584 --> 00:40:21,075 But you want to be here. 617 00:40:21,169 --> 00:40:23,706 - No, I... I don't. - Yes, right. 618 00:40:24,255 --> 00:40:26,793 You... You have knocked on the door 619 00:40:27,508 --> 00:40:29,591 for years and years. 620 00:40:29,677 --> 00:40:30,884 We can hear you. 621 00:40:31,137 --> 00:40:33,299 Knocking harder all the time. 622 00:40:33,389 --> 00:40:35,005 And finally, here it is. 623 00:40:35,934 --> 00:40:37,175 - Please. - Don't. 624 00:40:37,268 --> 00:40:39,551 No, I have to get... I have to get... 625 00:40:39,896 --> 00:40:40,896 Please! 626 00:40:47,028 --> 00:40:48,028 Oh Lord. 627 00:40:49,530 --> 00:40:51,362 Luke! Hey, can you hear me? 628 00:40:51,449 --> 00:40:54,066 - His pulse is weak. - We have to take him to the hospital. 629 00:40:54,160 --> 00:40:55,304 I thought you were gone, man. 630 00:40:55,328 --> 00:40:56,409 I thought you were gone. 631 00:40:56,496 --> 00:40:57,577 He saved me. 632 00:40:59,207 --> 00:41:00,994 You... you just woke up. 633 00:41:01,417 --> 00:41:02,603 - No. - You go. 634 00:41:02,627 --> 00:41:04,789 He saved me. 635 00:41:09,676 --> 00:41:11,338 I think it's a little clearer now. 636 00:41:14,263 --> 00:41:15,263 We have. 637 00:41:15,974 --> 00:41:17,806 - Nell? - We all have. 638 00:41:18,351 --> 00:41:21,435 That won't change anything. 639 00:41:22,230 --> 00:41:23,437 I want you to know that. 640 00:41:24,649 --> 00:41:26,311 - Nell... - The rest is confetti. (Confetti is a variety of pieces of paper at parades and parties) 641 00:41:26,401 --> 00:41:27,401 Hey. 642 00:41:27,568 --> 00:41:29,730 Many times, and we don't realize it. 643 00:41:30,863 --> 00:41:31,863 We all. 644 00:41:32,073 --> 00:41:33,073 Nellie? 645 00:41:33,241 --> 00:41:35,699 No, not the heart. 646 00:41:36,160 --> 00:41:37,492 - Nell? - A stomach. 647 00:41:38,454 --> 00:41:39,454 Nell? 648 00:41:39,789 --> 00:41:40,789 We have. 649 00:41:41,499 --> 00:41:44,333 - We all have. - I... I don't think he can hear us. 650 00:41:45,586 --> 00:41:47,703 Many times, and we didn't realize it. 651 00:41:48,881 --> 00:41:51,464 OK, we need to get Luke out of here. 652 00:41:51,551 --> 00:41:54,464 We need to take him to the hospital. 653 00:41:54,554 --> 00:41:55,920 I don't understand. 654 00:41:56,389 --> 00:41:58,301 All this time, we trying to enter this room, 655 00:41:58,391 --> 00:42:00,478 and now we can't get out. 656 00:42:00,727 --> 00:42:02,559 I think I've been here before. 657 00:42:03,062 --> 00:42:04,062 We have. 658 00:42:06,232 --> 00:42:07,232 We all have. 659 00:42:08,985 --> 00:42:10,897 Many times, and we don't realize it. 660 00:42:12,822 --> 00:42:13,822 We all. 661 00:42:17,994 --> 00:42:19,560 I think it's a little clearer now. 662 00:42:21,372 --> 00:42:22,954 Everything is broken. 663 00:42:23,583 --> 00:42:24,583 Time, I mean. 664 00:42:26,878 --> 00:42:31,043 I think it's been a long time it's like a line, if... 665 00:42:32,508 --> 00:42:34,670 If our moments are arranged like dominoes, 666 00:42:34,761 --> 00:42:35,842 and if they... 667 00:42:36,971 --> 00:42:39,588 Falling, each other. 668 00:42:39,682 --> 00:42:41,048 And keep walking, just a few days 669 00:42:41,142 --> 00:42:44,681 tip, one to next, to next, 670 00:42:45,229 --> 00:42:47,516 in the long line between the beginning... 671 00:42:49,859 --> 00:42:50,859 And finally. 672 00:42:52,987 --> 00:42:54,774 But I was wrong. 673 00:42:56,365 --> 00:42:57,731 Not like that at all. 674 00:42:59,368 --> 00:43:03,203 Our moments fall around us like rain. 675 00:43:03,790 --> 00:43:05,873 Or... Snow. 676 00:43:08,753 --> 00:43:10,619 Or confetti. 677 00:43:13,382 --> 00:43:14,543 You are right. 678 00:43:15,676 --> 00:43:17,087 We've been in this room. 679 00:43:18,096 --> 00:43:19,883 Many times, and we don't know. 680 00:43:21,390 --> 00:43:22,390 We all. 681 00:43:24,977 --> 00:43:26,058 Mom said... 682 00:43:28,898 --> 00:43:31,311 If... If the house was like the body... 683 00:43:32,652 --> 00:43:33,893 And every house... 684 00:43:35,696 --> 00:43:36,812 Have eyes. 685 00:43:38,783 --> 00:43:39,783 And bones. 686 00:43:41,202 --> 00:43:42,238 And skin. 687 00:43:45,540 --> 00:43:46,656 And face. 688 00:43:52,672 --> 00:43:54,880 This room is like heart of the house. 689 00:43:57,677 --> 00:43:59,293 No, not liver, stomach. 690 00:44:04,559 --> 00:44:06,391 This is your dance studio, Theo. 691 00:44:09,230 --> 00:44:10,391 That's my toy room. 692 00:44:11,691 --> 00:44:13,808 That's the reading room for Mother. 693 00:44:15,361 --> 00:44:16,977 Game room for Steve. 694 00:44:17,405 --> 00:44:19,237 Family room for Shirley. 695 00:44:19,699 --> 00:44:20,699 Tree house. 696 00:44:20,825 --> 00:44:23,733 How to spell "No Girls Allowed"? 697 00:44:23,786 --> 00:44:25,948 But it's always the Red Room. 698 00:44:26,289 --> 00:44:27,621 How do you get your tea? 699 00:44:27,707 --> 00:44:31,701 The faces are different so that we remain calm and silent. 700 00:44:33,671 --> 00:44:35,162 When digested. 701 00:44:37,967 --> 00:44:41,335 I'm like a little creature who was swallowed by a monster. 702 00:44:42,471 --> 00:44:45,885 And the monster felt my small movements in her stomach. 703 00:44:55,151 --> 00:44:56,483 You have to live. 704 00:44:59,530 --> 00:45:03,069 I don't... I don't know how to do this without you. 705 00:45:03,242 --> 00:45:04,653 I learned a secret. 706 00:45:06,454 --> 00:45:07,740 Nothing without. 707 00:45:09,040 --> 00:45:10,372 I'm not going 708 00:45:12,585 --> 00:45:15,578 I'm scattered into many parts, 709 00:45:16,505 --> 00:45:18,497 sprinkled in your life like... 710 00:45:19,383 --> 00:45:20,544 New snow. 711 00:45:24,180 --> 00:45:26,422 There are many things to want I tell you all. 712 00:45:28,017 --> 00:45:30,529 I'm sorry for my words our last in anger. 713 00:45:30,561 --> 00:45:31,722 They won't be the last. 714 00:45:33,606 --> 00:45:34,722 Forgive me. 715 00:45:35,524 --> 00:45:37,056 I'm sorry because I didn't... 716 00:45:38,027 --> 00:45:39,027 Answer the phone. 717 00:45:40,071 --> 00:45:41,071 But you did. 718 00:45:42,365 --> 00:45:43,697 Many times. 719 00:45:45,201 --> 00:45:47,989 I'm sorry if I don't listen, and I'm sorry... 720 00:45:48,079 --> 00:45:50,241 That won't change anything. 721 00:45:50,581 --> 00:45:51,822 I want you to know that. 722 00:45:54,001 --> 00:45:55,913 Forgiveness is warm. 723 00:45:57,088 --> 00:45:58,579 Like tears on your cheeks. 724 00:46:00,591 --> 00:46:02,298 Think about it and me 725 00:46:03,177 --> 00:46:04,713 when you stand in the rain. 726 00:46:05,513 --> 00:46:06,549 Hmm? 727 00:46:07,556 --> 00:46:09,138 I really love you. 728 00:46:11,269 --> 00:46:12,805 And you love me too. 729 00:46:13,604 --> 00:46:14,604 That's all. 730 00:46:16,857 --> 00:46:18,314 The rest is confetti. 731 00:47:12,747 --> 00:47:14,830 The first is Miss Grattan 732 00:47:15,291 --> 00:47:17,353 He tried not to let her in 733 00:47:17,585 --> 00:47:19,451 He stabbed him with a corn knife 734 00:47:20,004 --> 00:47:21,586 That's how his crimes began 735 00:47:22,131 --> 00:47:23,872 Next is Grandma Grattan 736 00:47:24,175 --> 00:47:26,212 Very old, tired and grey 737 00:47:26,802 --> 00:47:28,418 He fought off his attacker 738 00:47:29,388 --> 00:47:31,095 Until his strength weakens 739 00:47:31,766 --> 00:47:33,723 Next is Grandpa Grattan 740 00:47:34,310 --> 00:47:35,972 Sit near the fire 741 00:47:36,479 --> 00:47:38,641 He approached behind her 742 00:47:39,482 --> 00:47:41,724 And strangled him with a wire 743 00:47:43,152 --> 00:47:45,109 The last one is Baby Grattan 744 00:47:45,488 --> 00:47:47,070 They were all on trundle beds 745 00:47:47,698 --> 00:47:50,031 He seared it on the short ribs 746 00:47:50,201 --> 00:47:52,158 Until the child dies 747 00:47:52,703 --> 00:47:54,695 And then he spat out tobacco juice 748 00:47:55,331 --> 00:47:57,914 It's all over his golden head." 749 00:47:58,167 --> 00:47:59,248 Avoid. 750 00:48:10,262 --> 00:48:12,879 He's too cute, Liv. 751 00:48:13,265 --> 00:48:14,265 Far. 752 00:48:14,975 --> 00:48:17,137 Forgive a girl for being lonely. 753 00:48:19,271 --> 00:48:21,904 There's nothing more miserable than a cold bed. 754 00:48:22,483 --> 00:48:25,226 But all bridal beds it gets cold. 755 00:48:28,989 --> 00:48:30,321 Aren't they, darling? 756 00:48:45,172 --> 00:48:48,961 The journey ends with a meeting of lovers. 757 00:48:53,806 --> 00:48:56,765 I spent sleepless night. 758 00:48:58,269 --> 00:49:01,433 I've lied and... embarrass myself. 759 00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:05,353 And the air really tasted like wine. 760 00:49:07,236 --> 00:49:08,852 Everyone is at home. 761 00:49:10,614 --> 00:49:12,230 You've changed a lot. 762 00:49:19,790 --> 00:49:21,497 For my heart. 763 00:49:22,334 --> 00:49:24,451 How long are you here? 764 00:49:24,545 --> 00:49:26,332 Longer than I wanted. 765 00:49:26,922 --> 00:49:29,960 Too hard to seeing you here, like this. 766 00:49:30,301 --> 00:49:32,293 But I still... 767 00:49:34,096 --> 00:49:36,088 - Are you with me. - No love. 768 00:49:36,682 --> 00:49:39,140 It's not me, it's just you. 769 00:49:40,561 --> 00:49:41,802 What are you doing... 770 00:49:42,646 --> 00:49:43,853 All this time gone? 771 00:49:48,527 --> 00:49:49,563 I... 772 00:49:50,196 --> 00:49:51,528 Holding the door. 773 00:49:55,784 --> 00:49:58,492 Holding the door closed. 774 00:50:00,247 --> 00:50:03,115 I turned my back on it 775 00:50:03,501 --> 00:50:05,959 and my arm wide open, 776 00:50:06,045 --> 00:50:08,287 because I know there is monsters on the other hand, 777 00:50:08,380 --> 00:50:10,412 and what they want what's left of our family. 778 00:50:10,508 --> 00:50:12,716 And I hold it hard, 779 00:50:12,843 --> 00:50:16,211 I... I don't have one another hand for the kids. 780 00:50:16,972 --> 00:50:18,679 The monsters managed to escape. 781 00:50:18,766 --> 00:50:20,348 That's what monsters do. 782 00:50:21,477 --> 00:50:22,968 - But not here. - No. 783 00:50:23,062 --> 00:50:24,394 Especially here. 784 00:50:25,272 --> 00:50:27,138 They... They're out there, 785 00:50:27,233 --> 00:50:28,565 in... In the forest. 786 00:50:28,651 --> 00:50:32,395 They are out there, and we are here, and the children are finally safe. 787 00:50:32,863 --> 00:50:34,320 But not. No. They... 788 00:50:35,699 --> 00:50:36,815 They... They don't. 789 00:50:37,785 --> 00:50:38,821 They are dying. 790 00:50:38,953 --> 00:50:39,953 They wake up. 791 00:50:40,829 --> 00:50:43,162 - No. - You keep them away from me. 792 00:50:43,999 --> 00:50:45,365 To keep them safe. 793 00:50:46,043 --> 00:50:47,830 You keep them away from the truth. 794 00:50:48,879 --> 00:50:50,086 To keep you safe. 795 00:50:50,673 --> 00:50:52,414 They... Their image of you. 796 00:50:55,427 --> 00:50:56,427 I woke up... 797 00:50:57,763 --> 00:50:59,299 At the foot of these stairs, 798 00:51:00,474 --> 00:51:01,931 and I started walking. 799 00:51:03,769 --> 00:51:04,930 No more headaches. 800 00:51:05,396 --> 00:51:08,980 No pain, no day, no tonight, not now, not later. 801 00:51:10,526 --> 00:51:12,734 And I dreamed of the moment I walk. 802 00:51:14,613 --> 00:51:15,729 I dream of you. 803 00:51:16,156 --> 00:51:18,614 I dream of you and children's laughter. 804 00:51:19,118 --> 00:51:20,484 then I'll remember... 805 00:51:21,704 --> 00:51:23,491 If you take it from me. 806 00:51:23,956 --> 00:51:27,740 You took them and hurt them, Hugh. 807 00:51:28,043 --> 00:51:30,035 - And they suffer. - They do. 808 00:51:30,462 --> 00:51:31,998 They all do. 809 00:51:32,840 --> 00:51:35,298 And even if they... They are broken or addicted 810 00:51:35,426 --> 00:51:38,043 or without joy or, yes, even if they die, 811 00:51:38,429 --> 00:51:41,016 we have to watch it all because we are his parents. 812 00:51:41,599 --> 00:51:44,057 And that's the deal we made. 813 00:51:44,435 --> 00:51:47,018 Whatever life is, we bear witness. 814 00:51:47,146 --> 00:51:49,513 - This is terrible. - It doesn't have to be. 815 00:51:49,690 --> 00:51:52,398 I see our daughter dancing at her wedding. 816 00:51:52,484 --> 00:51:54,692 Her smile is like light, 817 00:51:54,778 --> 00:51:56,861 and that's reflected in everyone's face. 818 00:51:56,947 --> 00:51:58,734 And I know that light. 819 00:51:59,783 --> 00:52:02,116 Because it's ours. We do that. 820 00:52:02,244 --> 00:52:04,361 We love each other very much 821 00:52:04,455 --> 00:52:06,822 which spreads into the universe 822 00:52:06,957 --> 00:52:09,745 and it creates new stars. 823 00:52:10,961 --> 00:52:13,920 Dead star. 824 00:52:15,090 --> 00:52:17,423 The night sky is full of dead stars. 825 00:52:18,052 --> 00:52:19,918 They exploded to death. 826 00:52:20,179 --> 00:52:22,887 And if you can reach with big hands and 827 00:52:22,973 --> 00:52:27,092 and pulled it down before explode, you will. 828 00:52:27,269 --> 00:52:28,269 Yes I will. 829 00:52:28,354 --> 00:52:29,470 We're all safe now. 830 00:52:30,564 --> 00:52:33,682 This is our forever home. 831 00:52:33,817 --> 00:52:35,274 Always from the beginning. 832 00:52:35,527 --> 00:52:38,645 Nothing bad will happen never touch them again. 833 00:52:38,739 --> 00:52:40,321 There are no good intentions either. 834 00:52:42,409 --> 00:52:43,570 Open that door. 835 00:52:43,994 --> 00:52:45,826 I know you can open that door. 836 00:52:46,830 --> 00:52:50,494 I know you love people in that room more than anything else. 837 00:52:50,584 --> 00:52:52,541 I won't let you take it again. 838 00:52:53,379 --> 00:52:54,415 They will die. 839 00:52:54,546 --> 00:52:56,754 Liv, they will die if they stay. Now they are dying. 840 00:52:56,840 --> 00:52:58,126 Our baby is dying. 841 00:52:59,760 --> 00:53:00,760 Let them go. 842 00:53:01,053 --> 00:53:03,761 You always say it's work we send them sailing. 843 00:53:03,847 --> 00:53:05,447 - It's a dream. - Get out into the world. 844 00:53:05,474 --> 00:53:07,261 - Dream. - To the world. 845 00:53:07,518 --> 00:53:08,518 Let them go. 846 00:53:08,644 --> 00:53:10,886 I'll be alone again! 847 00:53:15,776 --> 00:53:18,018 If it weren't for the children in the room, 848 00:53:18,112 --> 00:53:20,695 I will sleep with you. 849 00:53:21,115 --> 00:53:22,526 I will follow you... 850 00:53:24,660 --> 00:53:26,276 Right in the dark. 851 00:53:27,746 --> 00:53:29,078 But those kids, Liv... 852 00:53:32,584 --> 00:53:35,372 But the kids in the room... 853 00:53:36,380 --> 00:53:38,963 If you open that door now... 854 00:53:40,926 --> 00:53:44,545 I will promise you, I will keep it forever. 855 00:53:46,181 --> 00:53:47,297 Open the door. 856 00:53:48,892 --> 00:53:49,892 Help. 857 00:53:50,102 --> 00:53:51,934 Let me fix this. 858 00:53:56,567 --> 00:53:57,567 Journey ends... 859 00:53:58,485 --> 00:54:00,727 In a lover's meeting. 860 00:54:03,449 --> 00:54:06,613 You have an engraving on my watch 861 00:54:06,744 --> 00:54:07,744 do you remember? 862 00:54:08,036 --> 00:54:09,243 But I was wrong. 863 00:54:10,414 --> 00:54:11,871 That's the secret, right? 864 00:54:11,957 --> 00:54:14,700 The journey doesn't end. 865 00:54:16,044 --> 00:54:17,630 Not if you love someone. 866 00:54:17,921 --> 00:54:19,437 They don't end at all. 867 00:54:20,758 --> 00:54:22,215 Isn't that amazing? 868 00:54:25,137 --> 00:54:26,503 A long time ago 869 00:54:27,389 --> 00:54:29,972 the world is just playing. 870 00:54:31,852 --> 00:54:32,888 And all... 871 00:54:33,854 --> 00:54:35,311 What we have... 872 00:54:36,190 --> 00:54:37,190 The five of us... 873 00:54:37,274 --> 00:54:38,694 No, no, no, no, no, stay with me. 874 00:54:38,734 --> 00:54:41,397 All we have is... Play. 875 00:54:41,987 --> 00:54:43,569 Luke. Luke. Luke. 876 00:54:43,655 --> 00:54:45,817 Stay awake! Living with... 877 00:54:53,749 --> 00:54:54,865 I'll start the car. 878 00:54:54,958 --> 00:54:56,665 - Is he breathing? - Yes. 879 00:54:57,336 --> 00:54:58,372 Come on. 880 00:55:12,935 --> 00:55:15,097 - Nearest Sacred Heart. - I can direct it. 881 00:55:15,187 --> 00:55:16,769 Are you coming with us or... 882 00:55:16,855 --> 00:55:17,855 Go. 883 00:55:18,357 --> 00:55:20,599 There is one more thing that must be done your sister and I did. 884 00:55:20,692 --> 00:55:22,132 - See you there. - What? 885 00:55:22,194 --> 00:55:24,026 We'll meet you at the hospital. 886 00:55:45,175 --> 00:55:47,762 Maybe it's better if you don't say anything to them. 887 00:55:51,557 --> 00:55:54,846 Dad... What do I see? 888 00:56:33,640 --> 00:56:34,640 Olivia? 889 00:56:39,062 --> 00:56:40,062 Liv? 890 00:57:22,731 --> 00:57:25,644 What... What happened? 891 00:57:28,904 --> 00:57:29,904 Why are you here? 892 00:57:29,988 --> 00:57:31,069 Did you see? 893 00:57:32,783 --> 00:57:33,864 What happened? 894 00:57:34,409 --> 00:57:38,119 I... I... I don't know. 895 00:57:39,706 --> 00:57:42,870 We are looking for... 896 00:57:51,468 --> 00:57:54,586 - Oh my God. - I can fix this. 897 00:57:57,474 --> 00:57:58,474 I can fix it. 898 00:58:06,149 --> 00:58:07,149 Hugh... 899 00:58:07,317 --> 00:58:10,276 - I can fix it. - Put him down. 900 00:58:10,904 --> 00:58:12,691 No, I can fix this. 901 00:58:13,782 --> 00:58:14,943 You... You can't. 902 00:58:23,667 --> 00:58:24,999 Why is this happening? 903 00:58:27,337 --> 00:58:28,953 Why are you here? 904 00:58:29,047 --> 00:58:32,085 We need your help. We need to call the police. 905 00:58:32,175 --> 00:58:33,416 Why are you here? 906 00:58:34,469 --> 00:58:38,634 We... Our daughter slipped out of the hole evening breeze, and we thought maybe... 907 00:58:42,519 --> 00:58:43,600 Oh... 908 00:58:46,314 --> 00:58:47,314 No. 909 00:58:47,399 --> 00:58:50,233 No no no no... 910 00:58:50,318 --> 00:58:53,777 No. No. Oh no. 911 00:58:55,240 --> 00:58:56,401 No... 912 00:58:57,200 --> 00:58:58,532 His two children. 913 00:58:59,536 --> 00:59:00,777 All their children. 914 00:59:04,875 --> 00:59:06,411 He wasn't in his bed. 915 00:59:08,420 --> 00:59:09,420 I do not know. 916 00:59:10,839 --> 00:59:11,875 I do not know. 917 00:59:12,257 --> 00:59:13,257 Mama? 918 00:59:21,224 --> 00:59:22,224 Abby? 919 00:59:23,560 --> 00:59:24,560 Abby? 920 00:59:29,274 --> 00:59:30,936 Abby! Abby! 921 00:59:31,610 --> 00:59:32,610 What happened? 922 00:59:33,195 --> 00:59:34,436 Who hurt you, darling? 923 00:59:52,631 --> 00:59:53,631 Darling? 924 00:59:56,384 --> 00:59:58,626 I had the strangest dream. 925 01:00:16,154 --> 01:00:17,941 I burned it. 926 01:00:21,660 --> 01:00:23,697 I burned down the house this is level with the ground. 927 01:00:27,999 --> 01:00:29,115 Stand on it. 928 01:00:30,585 --> 01:00:34,420 Make sure that every room, every walls, every scrap was burned. 929 01:00:35,966 --> 01:00:38,174 Burn this house down and... the hills reach to the ground. 930 01:00:40,387 --> 01:00:41,673 Then I will salt the soil. 931 01:00:43,390 --> 01:00:44,390 Won't. 932 01:00:46,184 --> 01:00:47,766 Horace, he can't. 933 01:00:49,938 --> 01:00:51,224 He's still here. 934 01:00:56,403 --> 01:00:59,146 I'll... Bring it his body returned to the forest. 935 01:00:59,239 --> 01:01:00,239 I'll... 936 01:01:01,283 --> 01:01:03,991 Bury him near the hut in the garden he loved. 937 01:01:07,664 --> 01:01:08,700 And when he was buried 938 01:01:09,791 --> 01:01:12,204 and that's it, we'll... We won't say anything. 939 01:01:13,879 --> 01:01:16,747 Do you understand, Hugh? We won't say anything. 940 01:01:18,049 --> 01:01:20,507 He almost didn't leave our home for the rest of his life. 941 01:01:21,386 --> 01:01:23,753 We keep him away from world to keep him safe. 942 01:01:25,765 --> 01:01:28,428 And we are the only one who knows to... 943 01:01:29,936 --> 01:01:31,017 To mourn him. 944 01:01:34,566 --> 01:01:37,149 We won't say anything about Olivia. 945 01:01:38,904 --> 01:01:40,440 We won't. 946 01:01:42,949 --> 01:01:44,030 That's not him. 947 01:01:44,576 --> 01:01:45,576 We know that. 948 01:01:45,702 --> 01:01:49,537 No, we know what that is actually happened here tonight. 949 01:01:50,707 --> 01:01:51,823 And your children, 950 01:01:52,751 --> 01:01:55,289 they don't need to hear anything. 951 01:01:55,879 --> 01:01:58,872 Or remember mom them in a way 952 01:01:58,965 --> 01:02:00,752 anything but him the real thing. 953 01:02:02,969 --> 01:02:04,710 And we can protect it for you. 954 01:02:07,140 --> 01:02:08,140 If... 955 01:02:10,268 --> 01:02:11,268 If what? 956 01:02:12,854 --> 01:02:14,516 If you look after this house. 957 01:02:15,106 --> 01:02:16,106 Defend us. 958 01:02:17,692 --> 01:02:19,149 Keep everyone away. 959 01:02:20,070 --> 01:02:22,938 Don't let other people take it, never again. 960 01:02:23,615 --> 01:02:24,651 Let him starve. 961 01:02:27,035 --> 01:02:28,242 But leave it here. 962 01:02:30,288 --> 01:02:31,449 So I can see it. 963 01:02:33,917 --> 01:02:35,124 this house, 964 01:02:35,543 --> 01:02:39,127 full of things very valuable, 965 01:02:39,798 --> 01:02:41,664 and they're not all yours. 966 01:02:43,134 --> 01:02:44,375 That's dangerous. 967 01:02:46,554 --> 01:02:47,554 For both of you. 968 01:02:47,681 --> 01:02:50,298 I don't care. This is where he is now. 969 01:02:50,976 --> 01:02:52,092 I'm his mother. 970 01:02:52,394 --> 01:02:54,410 I won't leave him here alone. 971 01:02:56,398 --> 01:02:58,355 I am not going to. 972 01:03:00,986 --> 01:03:01,986 Please, Hugh. 973 01:03:08,702 --> 01:03:09,702 Help. 974 01:04:00,378 --> 01:04:02,040 I hope you tell me. 975 01:04:06,092 --> 01:04:09,054 You didn't tell your brother what are you looking at. 976 01:04:09,095 --> 01:04:10,095 Why not? 977 01:04:12,265 --> 01:04:14,928 Some things... Can't tell. 978 01:04:16,061 --> 01:04:17,142 You live it... 979 01:04:18,063 --> 01:04:19,063 Or not. 980 01:04:19,689 --> 01:04:21,146 But they can't be told. 981 01:04:24,194 --> 01:04:25,194 Forgive me. 982 01:04:26,112 --> 01:04:27,112 No. 983 01:04:29,074 --> 01:04:30,155 I'm sorry, Dad. 984 01:04:32,160 --> 01:04:33,901 It's all yours now. 985 01:04:36,581 --> 01:04:37,617 House. 986 01:04:39,667 --> 01:04:40,667 And that promise. 987 01:04:44,714 --> 01:04:45,875 I want you to know... 988 01:04:46,883 --> 01:04:47,883 You... 989 01:04:48,426 --> 01:04:49,758 And your sister... 990 01:04:50,595 --> 01:04:51,595 And your brother... 991 01:04:53,181 --> 01:04:54,797 What's the best part of... 992 01:04:55,892 --> 01:04:56,892 I... 993 01:04:59,270 --> 01:05:02,684 Never proud of anything. 994 01:05:04,943 --> 01:05:06,525 Whatever, forever. 995 01:05:12,075 --> 01:05:13,282 Caring for each other. 996 01:05:14,119 --> 01:05:15,781 Father? 997 01:05:15,870 --> 01:05:17,430 And be nice each other. 998 01:05:19,457 --> 01:05:20,538 If there's nothing else... 999 01:05:21,918 --> 01:05:22,918 be good. 1000 01:05:25,922 --> 01:05:29,165 I am very lucky to be your father. 1001 01:06:58,306 --> 01:06:59,306 Home. 1002 01:07:02,477 --> 01:07:03,934 "I'm home," I thought... 1003 01:07:05,563 --> 01:07:07,555 and stop wondering at the thought. 1004 01:07:09,609 --> 01:07:10,609 I'm at home. 1005 01:07:11,736 --> 01:07:12,943 I'm at home. 1006 01:07:14,864 --> 01:07:15,864 Now, to go up. 1007 01:07:19,994 --> 01:07:23,362 I was so wrong about so many things. 1008 01:07:26,626 --> 01:07:29,164 I've lived with ghosts since I was little. 1009 01:07:30,922 --> 01:07:33,209 Since before I know they are there. 1010 01:07:34,175 --> 01:07:36,883 Ghosts are feelings guilty, ghosts are secrets, 1011 01:07:36,970 --> 01:07:39,132 ghosts are regret and failure. 1012 01:07:42,308 --> 01:07:43,344 But often... 1013 01:07:45,186 --> 01:07:47,269 Often, ghosts are desires. 1014 01:07:51,359 --> 01:07:53,521 Like marriage is a wish. 1015 01:07:57,907 --> 01:08:01,617 Marriage can be like home, and marriages can be haunted, 1016 01:08:01,703 --> 01:08:03,239 and I let that happen to us. 1017 01:08:03,371 --> 01:08:05,738 And I'm so sorry, Leigh. 1018 01:08:06,082 --> 01:08:07,082 You scared me. 1019 01:08:09,043 --> 01:08:11,126 I have something that I have to tell you. 1020 01:08:13,464 --> 01:08:14,625 And I will. 1021 01:08:15,883 --> 01:08:19,376 But I want you to remember, temporarily I do, that I love you, 1022 01:08:20,388 --> 01:08:21,388 my sweet... 1023 01:08:22,015 --> 01:08:23,015 Friends. 1024 01:08:24,183 --> 01:08:25,219 My best friend. 1025 01:08:26,603 --> 01:08:29,141 I ask you to love me 1026 01:08:30,523 --> 01:08:34,642 hard for a few minutes to ahead, and perhaps this is the most difficult 1027 01:08:35,445 --> 01:08:36,902 that you should ever love me, 1028 01:08:37,488 --> 01:08:40,276 but I know it will fine, because it's us. 1029 01:08:41,659 --> 01:08:42,659 So... 1030 01:08:43,995 --> 01:08:47,363 I'll jump. And I ask to hold my hand... 1031 01:08:48,875 --> 01:08:49,956 When I fell. 1032 01:08:54,005 --> 01:08:55,005 OK? 1033 01:08:59,260 --> 01:09:00,260 Good. 1034 01:09:07,060 --> 01:09:08,060 Several years ago... 1035 01:09:09,395 --> 01:09:11,352 Six years ago... 1036 01:09:12,523 --> 01:09:14,765 I went to that conference in Chicago. 1037 01:09:16,486 --> 01:09:18,523 I hope... 1038 01:09:18,613 --> 01:09:19,979 I love you more. 1039 01:09:21,616 --> 01:09:24,233 And let you see me clearly, without disguise 1040 01:09:25,370 --> 01:09:27,911 I hope I'm a better husband. 1041 01:09:29,082 --> 01:09:31,089 I hope I'm a better child. 1042 01:09:31,542 --> 01:09:33,659 I hope I am better brother. 1043 01:09:33,753 --> 01:09:35,415 This house 1044 01:09:35,505 --> 01:09:36,746 What do you say, Steve? 1045 01:09:36,839 --> 01:09:38,580 He keeps secrets 1046 01:09:38,675 --> 01:09:41,175 I said, I'm awake walls around the biggest part of my life 1047 01:09:41,260 --> 01:09:42,976 and I hid behind that wall, 1048 01:09:43,012 --> 01:09:47,105 and I think that wall makes us two safe. But walls don't work that way. 1049 01:09:47,725 --> 01:09:50,058 Walls never work like that. 1050 01:09:50,186 --> 01:09:51,302 How about this? 1051 01:09:52,105 --> 01:09:53,105 Oh, rubbish. 1052 01:09:55,858 --> 01:09:58,396 Just in case 1053 01:09:59,654 --> 01:10:01,737 I have to go 1054 01:10:03,950 --> 01:10:09,992 I'll go if you ask me 1055 01:10:11,624 --> 01:10:14,412 I'll stay... 1056 01:10:14,585 --> 01:10:16,793 I think the truck is full. What is it all about? 1057 01:10:17,171 --> 01:10:18,252 Yes, I'm ready. 1058 01:10:19,382 --> 01:10:24,502 If I leave, I will be shameless 1059 01:10:25,096 --> 01:10:27,463 Let my hunger take me there 1060 01:10:27,557 --> 01:10:30,721 And all that, taste guilt and sadness 1061 01:10:30,810 --> 01:10:34,474 as well as secrets and walls as well as ghosts, now, 1062 01:10:35,189 --> 01:10:36,555 my only hope... 1063 01:10:39,777 --> 01:10:42,144 My only wish is to go home. 1064 01:10:43,030 --> 01:10:44,896 This house 1065 01:10:45,658 --> 01:10:46,658 Please. 1066 01:10:46,743 --> 01:10:48,735 He's quite talkative 1067 01:10:49,871 --> 01:10:52,488 He creaks and groans 1068 01:10:52,582 --> 01:10:54,448 I just want to fix this. 1069 01:10:54,542 --> 01:10:55,582 Take care of me 1070 01:10:57,962 --> 01:11:01,046 And the photos 1071 01:11:01,466 --> 01:11:04,174 I know a liar 1072 01:11:05,511 --> 01:11:07,343 They just laughed 1073 01:11:07,472 --> 01:11:08,508 Afraid. 1074 01:11:09,015 --> 01:11:10,881 When I burn it 1075 01:11:10,975 --> 01:11:13,718 Fear is logic release 1076 01:11:13,811 --> 01:11:16,849 willingness to let go pattern that makes sense 1077 01:11:16,981 --> 01:11:19,769 I'll go if you ask me 1078 01:11:21,277 --> 01:11:22,563 I'll stay... 1079 01:11:22,653 --> 01:11:23,933 We're here. 1080 01:11:25,281 --> 01:11:28,149 We're here, Clara. 1081 01:11:29,744 --> 01:11:30,744 We did it. 1082 01:11:30,828 --> 01:11:33,115 If I leave, I will burn 1083 01:11:34,791 --> 01:11:37,499 Let my anger take me there 1084 01:11:37,585 --> 01:11:40,123 But that, it seems, is love. 1085 01:11:44,467 --> 01:11:50,555 And herpes zoster (Snake pox), They are tremblinghumans 1086 01:11:52,767 --> 01:11:57,432 Back door open 1087 01:11:57,522 --> 01:12:00,185 Love is logical release... 1088 01:12:00,316 --> 01:12:02,854 This old house is He a decent guardian 1089 01:12:02,944 --> 01:12:05,812 Willingness to let go a pattern that makes sense. 1090 01:12:05,947 --> 01:12:08,610 Enough of your guardian 1091 01:12:08,783 --> 01:12:11,150 We give up or fight it. 1092 01:12:12,245 --> 01:12:14,761 But we can't face it in the middle of the road. 1093 01:12:17,416 --> 01:12:21,376 Without it, we cannot continue to live for a long time 1094 01:12:21,504 --> 01:12:24,247 in the condition of absolute reality. 1095 01:12:26,551 --> 01:12:29,043 Hill House, insane, 1096 01:12:29,637 --> 01:12:32,425 standing on the hill, holding the darkness inside. 1097 01:12:34,475 --> 01:12:38,310 Has stood for a hundred years and may stand more than a hundred. 1098 01:12:38,729 --> 01:12:44,316 I will go if you ask me 1099 01:12:44,402 --> 01:12:45,483 In... 1100 01:12:46,112 --> 01:12:47,819 The wall is straight... 1101 01:12:49,031 --> 01:12:50,317 Bricks meet neatly... 1102 01:12:51,409 --> 01:12:52,616 Sturdy floor... 1103 01:12:54,620 --> 01:12:56,361 And the doors were closed tightly. 1104 01:13:00,001 --> 01:13:01,537 Silence continues to envelop 1105 01:13:01,627 --> 01:13:04,665 behind the forest and Hill House stone. 1106 01:13:05,756 --> 01:13:10,046 If I go, I'll go crazy 1107 01:13:10,136 --> 01:13:11,968 And those who walk there... 1108 01:13:14,265 --> 01:13:15,506 Walk together. 1109 01:13:15,530 --> 01:13:25,530 Sub By ToBeDupBeDo